Monday, November 15, 2010

A Lost Son

I have spent quite a bit of time the past several days staring at the ceiling and praying. Any parent can understand the loss of sleep for a child that breaks your heart. I am reminded today that God never, ever makes mistakes.

Our journey with son #7 started at age 10. By the time we met he had spent the first 9 years with an alcoholic mom and grandma. Men came in and out quickly. All of his siblings were fathered by different men. He spent years being abused in all ways that are possible. Severe neglect would best describe his journey. Born three months early to a drunken mom who cared little for the welfare of this baby he was born already physically beaten with multiple bruises on his face and chest. My heart breaks for what he went through.

I am reminded of the scripture that says this,;
And calling to him a child, he put him in the midst of them 3 and said, “Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4 Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. 5 “Whoever receives one such child in my name receives me, 6 but whoever causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin, it would be better for him to have a great millstone fastened around his neck and to be drowned in the depth of the sea. Matthew 18:2-6

Someday justice will be served but till then our family, our community and our nation will have to find a way to come to grips with this loss. As harsh as son's life was he was offered a new beginning. He was taught that God loves him. We shared that we all have choices in this life and we can rise above our past and move forward to a bright future. We spoke God's truth into his life.

This battle like all battles belong to the LORD, God Almighty. God knows the potential this son of ours has. He knows he could choose to be a mighty warrior for the LORD. Imagine such a young man traveling the country telling his story one of redemption, of love and mercy. God can take a broken vessel and make it whole again.

God is in the heart mending business. All son has to do is surrender. Don't we all need this lesson. It can be so hard to surrender our will to the Father's. It is scary! What if God chooses something I don't like? God whispers gently into our ears, "dear child, trust me, I have good things for you"

May our son and those like him listen to that voice that is calling him home.

In Christ Alone,


  1. Praying too...
    What more can I say? That's the best we can do...give him to God.

  2. How amazing you are to even have these thoughts after the last few years you have had with him. You are amazing!!!!! How often we need to remember this for the boys.

    Love you,
    Jessica H.

  3. This makes me cry. I am trusting to the shepherd who leaves the 99 to look for the lost one.